Why do people judge others? What gives someone the right to make you feel bad about something you like? These questions have recently been circulating in my head and it just makes me think about my past. I remember being a young little boy scared to try anything because he was so scared to fail, no not scared to fail, scared to be judged by others for failing or being too good at something. How could such a smart and talented boy be so mediocre? It's not because he can't it's because he wont, he won't allow others to get the chance to judge him for being smart so scared of being called a nerd he dumbed himself down to fit in, he became so obsessed with fitting in he would do anything to be normal. He never gave anything his all so he doesn't know what he's truly capable of because he won't be judged he can't be judged, he's just so in fear of what others would think he ended up falling down and now he's left to think, what could I have done what would've happened if I had just gave it my all? He still doesn't know what he can do so now he's left playing catch up to see what he can do, that fear is still there but he refuses to waste his talent anymore, he refuses to end up where all the “normal” people will be so now he tells himself he must rebuild himself and be reborn like a phoenix being resurrected he will come back better than ever.
© Joshua Parks