I'm spiraling down the drain
I feel like I can never stay sane
Every time I fall one step
I go back down the entire staircase
Two steps forward
But a thousand steps back
Hard to see a way forward
When I feel I'm about to crack
Is this one bad day worth a relapse?
Every thought in my mind screams yes
And it's hard to squeeze through the gaps
These demons in my head seem to be running laps
Around and around they spin me out of control
I tried to play my part but I don't think I'm meant for this role
I tried to climb out but I'm still in this hole
I wasn't meant for this, for a world so cold
I could never listen to the lies I've been told
Been this way since I was nine years old
If it hasn't changed by now I don't think it ever will
Of this existence I've had my fill
Maybe I can get some rest if I take this pill
Damn, I just hate it, all I want to be is...