1.
I fear feeling this
All-consuming loneliness forever.
I don't fear being ALONE indefinitely;
I've come to realise that
Despite my most self-sabotaging
Tendencies,
My social circle will have at least
One other member.
When I die,
The funeral party may be pitifully small,
But I do believe it will exist.
Instead, I fear the endless loneliness-
That no matter who comes into my life,
Whoever loves me as much as they can,
That I will exist within an isolation
Sphere of my own making.

I fear that I will ultimately be
My one and only
Roadblock to happiness.


2.
I'm terrified of my body.
Finally coming to terms
With my gender has left my body and I
At odds.
We get along best when we ignore
Each other's existence.
This is not healthy,
Nor conducive to decent quality...