It hurts, but I know the pain will pass. But, afterall that pain... what did I see? I saw a smile, yet was it really the smile that gave me such a feeling of pain? No, it wasn't. Her smile said to the world "I'm okay" her eyes said "Hold me" while her body shaked in fear. Why was she afraid? Is she afraid I might leave? I don't want to leave, it's you that pulled me from my hearts' hell. I get it, trust is the key to ones' selfless heart. But love, love with you is perfect, yet we're friends. Just friends... I live with that fact everyday, I scream in my head "KISS HER!" No. No. NO! We'll ruin what we already have with her. I can't bare that, that will destroy me. She is my one true... love. No, I've fallen for her, she loves another though. Stop me, I may kiss her when I see her tomorrow. Why can't we? Because she'll leave when we give ourself to her, we would drop anything for just her friendship. I'm happy living alone, 'cause her friendship is enough. LIES I tell myself. I love you. Can't hide such a truth from you any longer. Tomorrow I will kiss those lips and hopefully hold your beautiful body. I love you will finally come from my lips, I want to gaze in those blue eyes and just get lost in the beauty you hold. I want you to say "I was waiting for that" to come into reality, but for I to be so naive would hurt me more in the end, so I'll say it to you love.
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