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I'm Tired
It's stressing me out, school
I've had a breakdown about it once infront of my mom, which I still think to this day is pathetic and here I am feeling like I'm gonna again and that because of me
My procrastination, my stupidity, me being dumb, dumb, dumb
My lab book is hanging on for dear life almost half of what I wrote is falling out and cxc is right around the corner
and its not just one lab book
It's 2 of them
Chemistry which is the science I'm smartest in or whatever that is
And Biology the one I need but don't like so much but can be good at
My stupidity for tearing out pages in grade 10
Now it looks like all that has come back to haunt me
And I'm tired
I'm tired of everything that is something
I'm tired of school, I'm tired of my life, my self, my health, my mind for overthinking everything that is life, I'm tired of not being smart enough, I'm tired of not being able to talk properly, tired of always being nervous and chipping the fuck out of nails, I'm tired of my mom, my dad, my uncle, tired of the way I think, tired of being tired and I'm tired of writing but it seems like no matter what I do writing will just always be away for me to talk to someone when there's no one to talk to.
Most of all I'm tired of how people treat me and things I do to get treated that way, sometimes I deserve it and I'm tired of how I treat people, sometimes I treat people badly and sometimes too good.
I've thought about it, alot of times, but I've never been able to act on it and I don't know of I ever will
And yeah it might be stupid, I'm thinking about killing myself because of school, when I'm not being pressured, my mom isn't pressuring me, no one is, except for me, I put pressure on myself.
I don't like feel like I'm failing or like failing
And I can't fucking take when every fucking thing in my life is all fucking messed up.
And I can't take being who tf I am
Some pathetic 15 year old stressing about school work and want to kill himself becuz of it and thinks that everything is crumbling down and nothing right now in my life is right and I'm a man.
Why tf do I feel like saltstreams are gonna run on my face.
A man
Im a man
I'm gay that's already hard as it is, don't fucking cry like a bitch and look pathetic.
You're a man, Dante, a fucking man.
I'm gonna be ok
© Dantewrites
I've had a breakdown about it once infront of my mom, which I still think to this day is pathetic and here I am feeling like I'm gonna again and that because of me
My procrastination, my stupidity, me being dumb, dumb, dumb
My lab book is hanging on for dear life almost half of what I wrote is falling out and cxc is right around the corner
and its not just one lab book
It's 2 of them
Chemistry which is the science I'm smartest in or whatever that is
And Biology the one I need but don't like so much but can be good at
My stupidity for tearing out pages in grade 10
Now it looks like all that has come back to haunt me
And I'm tired
I'm tired of everything that is something
I'm tired of school, I'm tired of my life, my self, my health, my mind for overthinking everything that is life, I'm tired of not being smart enough, I'm tired of not being able to talk properly, tired of always being nervous and chipping the fuck out of nails, I'm tired of my mom, my dad, my uncle, tired of the way I think, tired of being tired and I'm tired of writing but it seems like no matter what I do writing will just always be away for me to talk to someone when there's no one to talk to.
Most of all I'm tired of how people treat me and things I do to get treated that way, sometimes I deserve it and I'm tired of how I treat people, sometimes I treat people badly and sometimes too good.
I've thought about it, alot of times, but I've never been able to act on it and I don't know of I ever will
And yeah it might be stupid, I'm thinking about killing myself because of school, when I'm not being pressured, my mom isn't pressuring me, no one is, except for me, I put pressure on myself.
I don't like feel like I'm failing or like failing
And I can't fucking take when every fucking thing in my life is all fucking messed up.
And I can't take being who tf I am
Some pathetic 15 year old stressing about school work and want to kill himself becuz of it and thinks that everything is crumbling down and nothing right now in my life is right and I'm a man.
Why tf do I feel like saltstreams are gonna run on my face.
A man
Im a man
I'm gay that's already hard as it is, don't fucking cry like a bitch and look pathetic.
You're a man, Dante, a fucking man.
I'm gonna be ok
© Dantewrites
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