The fields of flowers I dance through in my mind
The showers of rain filling me up inside
I seek peace, this is all i wish to find
though i am tested heavily,
some of you muthertruckers are truly one of a kind
but i know there’s a reason you’re here,
there’s gotta be a why
why somehow, no matter how hard i try
ignoring you is a pointless fight
i say there’s no hard feelings,
truth is that’s a lie
because i’ll never forget how
i felt that one night
how all the pieces fell in one place,
and i could no longer remain delusional, refusing to use my sight
my spirit says not to blame you,
and deep down i know she’s right
because if fighting for you
meant ghosting and
confusing separation
leading me on though you
had no intention on furthering
this connection
pulling me on emotional highs
and letting me fall from the sky
leaving me to wonder why
you were never really gonna make space
for me in your life
i just...