Wash away this pain and grief.
Wash away the guilt I feel.
Wash away this fool’s belief
That I’ll ever smile for real.

Depression rears its ugly head
When disappointment is all I know.
The darkness threatens to swallow me.
Am I selfish for wanting to go

Distract myself with things that bring
Some joy into this empty life?
Will it ever stop hurting?
Will I ever escape this strife?

Why do I keep making plans?
Why let myself attempt to hope?
In the end, it’s all a mess.
How am I supposed to cope?

Wash away this pain and grief.
Wash away the guilt I feel.
Wash away this fool’s belief
That I’ll ever smile for real.

I’m falling, falling, falling into
The deepest abyss that I’ve faced yet.
I don’t think I’ll escape this time.
I’m screaming, lost, full of regret.

Why is this the life I live?
Is this the thing I stuck around for?
I fought like hell just to survive.
I cannot take this anymore.

Dying would have been easier,
Yet here I stand, my heart beating,
To the rhythm of a song
That I never even wanted to sing.

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