There is a battle going on my mind, filled with the darkness n fear.
That dominate the peace in my head.
Like the time never stop running,
I tried so hard with all the fake smile
Expecting the best to happen.
I ask myself
When can I overcome this fear?
Or was it me trapping the fear inside there by myself?
With all the burdens that i am carrying in my head...
I felt empty n lonely.
Knowing that there's no way
I even want to believe that
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Yet I stood on this road,
I felt the wind blowing gently,
With all the heavy thoughts & questions,
Asking myself whom to choose.
The broken pieces of my life or
The flash of what was once my life.
Knowing that I had to changed,
I tried to find the answer, which
always end up with the same question.
to communicate the pain & illness in my head,
I shared my feelings & painful thought with myself
Hiding the pain with my silence.
I want to be missed but I'm also afraid to be loved cos that hurts

© verinmiwashi