I sensed the descent before it occurred,
Powerless to halt its course unfurled.
Oh, hold on! I try, but I cannot succeed,
I find myself sinking, slowly at first with stagnant speed.

Into an abyss, a void of nothingness, I descend,
Clutching at straws and empty air, trying to mend.
How did this happen? I ponder and query,
All that once brought peace now brings strife and worry.

My joyful memories are now cloaked in doubt,
I bring smiles to others, but my own is left out.
I spread happiness, yet I've forgotten how to feel,
Lost in a labyrinth of emotions, trying to heal.

Another day dawns to don my mask once more,
Pretending to be happy as I did before.
But deep within, I feel the descent, the fall,
Into an abyss whose end I cannot recall.

I question if redemption is within my grasp,
For my mind as dark as a moonless night,
Yet still, I search for a glimmer of light,
To guide me through this endless night.

Though lost in shadows, hope may yet be found,
For even in darkness, goodness can abound.
So I'll continue to wear this mask as I try,
To find my way back towards the light in the sky.
For within my heart, strength will rise,
And in the end, I'll save me, defying the demise.

© Eva Evans