I see it now. "Love yourself before trying to love somebody else", they say.

This phrase always used to make me so confused, and so fucking mad.

What does that even mean?! I have so many insecurities, I can't possibly start loving every part of me. My teeth aren't straight, my hair is too thin, my voice is too low, I'm not witty or funny, my skin's really bad, I am so damn shy, I wish my tummy was flat, I don't fit in anywhere.

I don't like those things about me and that will never change.
This is how I'll always feel.

And you're telling me I can't love someone until i turn this around? Well fuck.

Though I see it now.

I see that relationships are always so exhausting to me because of how hard I try to be the person I think people want me to be.

I realise that i've been distancing...