What do I feel? As I gazed at the dreary road,
How could I calm? Watching the rain pouring beneath my foggy windows

Do comfort is all necessary?
Can the warmth stop the tides of my sea?

I peeked at the water, blues conquered my entire existence,
I soaked into the tub and tears broke my stolid pretense

At last, the long-hidden agony was disclosed,
And the throbbing pain from nowhere arose

Even though
I am like an empty being,

But even so,
I am capable of bleeding

I closed my eyes as tears kept streaming down my cheeks,
Blue devils that I've been fighting for weeks

If I give in to my waves,
Will I get my way out of this suffocating cave?

If I lift myself to the mist?
Will the coldness stop the dreadful memories?

But still, I have to find my way out,
So I could stop bursting when there's nothing to cry about

This sea of thoughts is drowning me like a mess,
I didn't notice that I had succumbed to infernal gloominess

I closed my eyes and hummed silently,
Let the water take my essence as peace embraced me

Even though
I am already like a lifeless being

Still so,
I am capable of dying.


© Rylereve