I am Beautiful
even though I was...

Obsessed with dieting,
almost refusing to eat.
Counting every calorie,
I be damned if I cheat.

Weighing in the morn
and again at night.
If I had put on a pound,
coffee was my delight.

Water is all I drank
140 so ounces a day.
I was truly committed
to loosing the weight.

Cutting back
pushing my plate away
no starches, fried, or sweet food.
-
Skipping meals,
living on energy drinks,
staying in a bad mood.

I got down to 119 pounds
starting from 285
I was very much unhealthy
and I was barely alive.

Severely malnourished,
put on a feeding tube.
The doctor said, "5 more
pounds and there will be
nothing we can do."

Diagnosed with
Stress Induced Anorexia,
something brought upon myself.
My way of dieting had to stop
for I had ruined my health.

I had to learn to eat again
and stop my rationale way.
I had a long road ahead
but I took it day by day.

Being "Skinny Minnie"
no longer consumes me.
I only have one life to live,
being happy with my family.

Because I know, I am beautiful!


© Brandi Campbell