if there’s a soulmate searching for me —
i often let my maker know that
not once did i dream of a big gaudy
wedding day, picking a gown or a court

just the simplicity of not having an
aisle to walk down —
to avoid having the man who donated
a sperm feeling entitled to
that walk with me, or a hand off;
an elopement was my dream —
to disclose he and the majority
of both sides of the families who claim me

you two, though?
the tough cookies who never failed
to shower granddaughters in immense
crumbles of love and a sense of security —
you two? i prayed that you would’ve
been if, and one of the only asked-for
requirements

my heart is shattered forever
—no more snuggled up mornings
where the universe almost
really seized moments

looking back as arie and i reminisce of
the moments you two most came through —
i know as my guardian angels now,
you get my love letters in prayers
to figuratively put on your fridge forever—
despite having the front row seat,
as those little parcels leave me

I know they’ll never comprehend—
— our bond is ours, only ours,
especially the part where y’all
kept us most safe — as you lived with us,

insuring he kept his demons locked up,
uncomfortable to play in the dark
— in company.

© a.Soul

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