It was her
That led me to drink
Just to numb my nerves
And not to be lost to the light
The gaslighting blinding
So much paraffin
My eyes were always watering
I tasted it in my throat
Alcohol washing the toxicity away
The emotional damage profound
Disinfecting my soul
I never asked for much
Just loyalty no more
I loved her despite the darkness
Only wishing to serve
Just to be like Dad
Big shoes to fill, indeed

But consistency it’s so boring
Women fueled by the chaos
It keeps them emotionally rewarded
Bad boys are not for changing
But they do love the challenge
Change for change sake
Fuel for the gossip gang
“What did he do now”
“You...