Feelings of disgrace
At the same time sanity
Fill me with a bit of peace
Allowing me to finally think.

I'm holding on to things
I never thought
I'd have to hold on to
Hanging by a thread.

The future pierces my thoughts
But the present remains unknown
Allowing me to think ahead
But never in the moment.

Lost in my head continually
Hands reaching for stability
But finding a jello like life
That I'm currently living

There but not secure
Life that's not really being lived
The downward spiral im facing
Struggling on an upward twist.

The surface is so close
But it feels like a million miles
While I squirm my way to the top
But seem to never reach it.

Like a bear trap, I'm stuck
But alive and scared
Not know how I will break free
But praying still that I can.

Day breaks each day
Casting sun over my face
That feels magical..
But yet sad.
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