Mindless drone.
Wandering.
Observing.
hoping for some meaningful event.
waiting to feel meaningful.
useful… wanted…
When will it start to finally feel?
feel Happy?
opposed to the usual numbing ache.
feel Real?
like it actually matters in the grand scheme.

Numb little drone
floating through time and space.
never stopping to think,
“How did I get here?”
never stops to wonder,
“What did I do wrong?”
never knowing where to go or what to do.

All alone.
Free?… or Lonely?…
Does it accept the Freedom?
or live in crippling Lonliness?
Only time can tell…
Tik… Tok…
Tik….. Tok…
Tik.

© AVNMK