want to change the past
but my heart says
wont change who you are now.
as I focused on his happiness and comfort
i forgot i was a human too
i forgot i needed all the comfort and
the self esteem to be a better me
failed in such thing
now I have remorses deep down in my heart
that im not willing to dig and forget
you see , when someone hurts you
you dont feel or think at the time
all the crying and overthinking
happens day after day later on
some are lucky to move on
some are stuck in that big hole in the dark
they cant see the lights anymore
just like me.
i write to ease my pain
to forget, i did and said things
things that haunt my head and trouble my thoughts
i cant sleep peacefully no more
im constantly watching his face in front of me
looking for his face in every single person existing
if someone would ask do you still love him
i would say yes
i love him with all of my heart

"trying to impress others to be wanted by them and liked will work for a short period
than they will get tired of you and leave for a better far more impressive other woman
those meant for us will be in their knees holding rings for our hands
to be seen we have to be vulnerable first"


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voglio cambiare il passato
ma il mio cuore dice
non cambierà chi sei adesso.
mentre mi concentravo sulla sua felicità e conforto
avevo dimenticato che anch'io ero un essere umana
avevo dimenticato che avevo bisogno di tutto il comfort e
l'autostima per essere una persona migliore
fallito in una cosa del genere
ora ho dei rimorsi nel profondo del cuore
che non sono disposto a scavare e...