When life brings me to my knees, I only have two choices.

I could stay down and give up.

Or I could do what I always do, pick myself up and start it again.

I don't need to be saved or fixed..

But I do want to be respected and understood.

I'm not going to worry myself over things I can't control. People see my smile and hear my laughter and think everything is just great and some days are ok.

But them days when I'm sad or struggling, they don't see past my eyes to understand the pain eating away at my soul.
But I got this. I figure it out even when I have no idea what the fuck to do, to be honest that's how I feel most of the time..

It's hard keeping it together when all you want to do is fall apart..

I'll cry in the shower, scream loudly when I'm by myself, ..just because I can-.because it calms me..somehow.

Sometimes you see me and I look put together, but in reality I'm a whirlwind of a beautiful mess.

I don't apologize for who I am.. I'm just doing the best I can. I'm going to be fine- I always am.

for now, that will have to be enough. I'll keep my hope for a better days..

I can, and I will..because I always do.
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