How do I compete with a drug?
Especially one that makes you feel numb.
Normally you would have felt my hug but now you feel nothing and I feel so dumb.
I don't know if it's you or the meds.
We pretend like we were only ever friends.
Like we were never even together and that's hard to do when I felt a bond I thought wouldn't sever.
When you left it really hurt.
I tried to be brave but what can you expect from an introvert.
I gave it my all and it still wasn't enough.
I guess I just didn't have the right stuff.
I stepped outside my comfort zone and now I don't even get messages sent to my phone.
I'll see a doctor soon and I'll fight fire with fire.
There will be no more pretending because it will be my turn to feel nothing.