knowing hurts but trying to understand is torture and trying to let her not find out that I know what she has been doing is hell.

so I embrace this darkness once again I am no stranger, I am no friend I have now accepted that I have been part of it my whole existence.

I sit here and kill this part of me once again with one more shot and one more hit I am now ready for that conversation and the contemplation that is to follow.

with the noose in the shadows and the razors in the darkened thoughts of my mind ,my heart and soul are trying to go their separate ways from sanity and reality.


© Rexican