I don't want to have to keep on 'coping' with the pain of what happened to me, okay?
I don't understand it, never have and probably never will,
and it's left me me messed up in so many ways that I don't even know how to begin to think about healing.
I wanted to be loved not abused,
I wanted to no longer be lonely not used,
I guess maybe I don't deserve a nice relationship,
maybe all I'm good for,
is men using me until I'm done for.
you caressed me till you convinced me that a touch would be...