Pheonix
Lost in myself yet again
Thought I overcame this fucking feeling so please explain to me why it's back with a vengeance it seems
Do you know the one where you feel like a part of you is missing?
An overall emptiness that just won't cease
Life felt almost perfect for a short time period, I knew it felt way too nice to stay that way
Feeling like a millisecond, if that until it went away
Until here came depression like the kool-aid man
Bursting through the walls I tried barricading my mind with
Following up right behind was anxiety, walking in quite slowly but arriving on cue too
Looking around nervously, you would think they were lost
But Nah they came for any piece of sanity I have left
The perfect evil duo, those sick and twisted two
Together wreaking havoc on many mentally unstable freaks like yours truly
Stealing so much serotonin, everyone will have to call me Catherine for the time being
Until I am able to even get a small amount back, Sarah is not even here any more folks
Needing the light invoked back in my entire being
A legitimate fear I seem to have kept since childhood haunts me deep since I seem to have had it move in as my neighbors on every side of me even across the street
Surrounding and engulfing me, darkness seizing my oxygen intake
Until wrapping its hands around my neck ignites a small speck of light in my chest
Activating the fight for my life, kicking with all my might
Breathing in the air, feeling the blood remaining to run through my veins
a grim expression on the reapers face as he vanishes, like an empty-handed thief in the night
Shining too bright, an eruption of flames from the inside out has him fleeing from my sight
Never knowing the destruction I was causing to myself would free me eventually over time
Like a Phoenix, fire blazing from within until there's nothing more than ashes to Rise and be reborn from once again
© SarahAbell
#pheonix
#rise
Thought I overcame this fucking feeling so please explain to me why it's back with a vengeance it seems
Do you know the one where you feel like a part of you is missing?
An overall emptiness that just won't cease
Life felt almost perfect for a short time period, I knew it felt way too nice to stay that way
Feeling like a millisecond, if that until it went away
Until here came depression like the kool-aid man
Bursting through the walls I tried barricading my mind with
Following up right behind was anxiety, walking in quite slowly but arriving on cue too
Looking around nervously, you would think they were lost
But Nah they came for any piece of sanity I have left
The perfect evil duo, those sick and twisted two
Together wreaking havoc on many mentally unstable freaks like yours truly
Stealing so much serotonin, everyone will have to call me Catherine for the time being
Until I am able to even get a small amount back, Sarah is not even here any more folks
Needing the light invoked back in my entire being
A legitimate fear I seem to have kept since childhood haunts me deep since I seem to have had it move in as my neighbors on every side of me even across the street
Surrounding and engulfing me, darkness seizing my oxygen intake
Until wrapping its hands around my neck ignites a small speck of light in my chest
Activating the fight for my life, kicking with all my might
Breathing in the air, feeling the blood remaining to run through my veins
a grim expression on the reapers face as he vanishes, like an empty-handed thief in the night
Shining too bright, an eruption of flames from the inside out has him fleeing from my sight
Never knowing the destruction I was causing to myself would free me eventually over time
Like a Phoenix, fire blazing from within until there's nothing more than ashes to Rise and be reborn from once again
© SarahAbell
#pheonix
#rise
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