I know I said “I don’t love you”, and perhaps I was being honest and at the same time being wrong.
I was being honest in how I felt because I was no longer in love with you, but I was being wrong in the way that I hurt you. It wasn’t a plan of mine for things to end up like this. I’m not even certain I was in love with you from the start, and I know it sounds cold but these are my exact thoughts and emotions at this time in place. Of all that I’ve been through with you has gotten me to this current state. Of all the arguments and pain we both endure in our past with our exes, and I’ve always bound never to repeat, but it was merely a suggestion. A suggestion I’ve made to myself because I still had plenty of work to do. Plenty of analyzing and learning about myself before meeting you. I feel you as well could of used your time alone before meeting me to work on your emotional state. We both could of use plenty of therapy to avoid further mistakes.
You came to my life with a past that broke you and kept you there because you’ve never truly overcame your insecurities, your own fears. I aswell came from a dark place and we’ve hope together we see light of day. Yet, it was never the case. Instead we came to face our hardest battle with one another today. You’ve gotten sick and I have gotten emotionally drained. What is there else to do at this stage? I don’t want you to die, I don’t want to loose a friend. To me you...