I can feel the night
Pulling my muscles
Into the mattress;
And weighing me down.

I can feel the exhaustion.
Although I want to stay awake.
Because I feel unsafe.

I'm distracted
By thoughts about death
And worthlessness.

I wish
I could relax;
I feel hopeless.

Tiredness
Is a heavy weight
Pushing me towards sleep,
Wherever that is.

Except
Everytime I get close
Fear takes over.
My eyes stay wide open.

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