I still lay awake at night wondering how you could show so much kindness.
I know I was a terrible partner when we were together.
You gave me tools for self healing and forgave that you knew I was a mess.

Because of you I learned to heal,
the parts of me abuse did steal.
So wounded and broken I met you,
no ability to understand how the side effects of my trauma would abuse you.

Despite the years I wish I could repay,
the healing gifts you gave me when you left me that day.
I've had 2 healthier loves since you gave me the tools to fix myself.
I learned to love me and I learned to love somebody.

Still none live up to the one who despite the monster I was taught me I deserved to be treated kindly buy others and more importantly to be kind to me.

Thank you dear lover I lost.
© Tinka H Cain