from my mothers side i am the youngest child.
in the shadow of my older siblings.
i thought myself everything i know on my own just so i can be who i want to be.
i am a shadow of my siblings accomplishments, of their achievements.
i was always compered to them.
how im the worst, how i dont try,
but i didnt grow up in the same environment as they did.

from my fathers side i am the oldest child.
im supposed to be a good role for my younger brothers.
but i cannot be that for them, not when i try to live my life so i wouldnt end up just like him.
i am supposed to be the good role model, but thats not who i am.

someone once told me i should try what its like to be the youngest child.
but i know that feeling all to well.

someone once told me i should try what its like to be the oldest child. but i know that feeling a little bit too much.

someone once told me i should try to be the middle child.
but in the end im stuck in the middle, because of the choices my parents made.


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