how can I get anyone to understand,
just how I am feeling,
and how lifes battles are effecting me,
I can't explain what I don't understand,
I can't tell u why this happened,how can
I tell people this wasnt part of the plan, I wasn't meant to collapse and fall apart I wasn't meant to destroy every damn thing from the start, I was meant to be different yes but I wasn't meant to act this offset, u say u don't want me but u love me,you admire me, then u can't stand me, always finding a reason to leave me behind, but u can't be without me, noone is allowed to have me even if u don't have me, u say u only hanging around cos u feel sorry for me now, that hurt ill admit but I don't need ur shitty love or the bullshit it brings she can keep it keep u and all the drama that comes with u, she won't be seeing my kids nor acting as a mother to them, now I have to do what I couldn't imagine I'd ever do and that's to turn my back completely on you, you just lift me up to bring me down,pull me close to push me away, watch me fall asleep so u can wake me up, what happened to u who the fu k are u I don't have a clue so no I don't want to be around u you look like the man I love but no way he would be as foolish as this one, he don't take nothing serious it's all just games and fun, now im alone and in tears cos I thought u was the one.how Fuckiin dumb u have shown me I am cos at the end of the day I wasn't ever part of ur plan I get that now I completely understand, so I won't be ur girl cos u ain't my MAN!!!
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