Why do you scare me?
When I get mad, you're louder than me.
When I shout, you're yelling all the more,
I'm getting much afraid of you, Honey.

I can no longer be who I used to be,
Free to say whatever I want to say,
Not worrying that I could be hurt back,
So badly, those trash talks pierce my heart.

I don't know what has gotten inside of you
Your temper seems swifly out of control,
How much I miss your lovingkindness back then,
You were so sweet, patient, careful when talking.

I've been loving you for years thinking that
Your love to me is too strong to unknot,
But why must I have to be mindful of my act?
The heartaches get deep, the pain must I forget.

No, don't cry! It doesn't work anymore.
You're used to seeing me this way,
Shut up my heart, who cares, anyway?
Yet I'm still frightened even after the sorry you have to say.

Should I just let you wound my heart again and again?
Coz anyway the cuts would heal sooner or later,
But the sting is burning in my gut, Honey,
I think this love is toxic and it's killing me.
© eoskarlight