im trying all I can to not let these thoughts in my head get the better of me, I feel like I'm the walking dead, i can't get ahead when I think this could be it I am nearly there, it's one step forward 10 steps back it's another lesson learnt, my decisions left me burnt, how will I escape this hell it's a painful place to be u think u know what I mean but i guarantee u ain't got a clue not even a bit, u can't begin to imagine what i battle, the pain i keep hidden,I can't let it show y'all can say what ya want i ain't worried about y'all,it's all just nonsense, its all just hear say,he say, she say,but they said u said,that I said you said he said she said, IDGAF who sayz a thing,your interrogating me like u know the answers to the questions u be asking, I hate this shit, not having u around not being able to hug u at night, call Upon you when shit ain't going right, I'd call u to save my arse,day or night u would be there no doubt even if after a while your timing got delayed til u forgot to remind ur self I existed everyday, now it's like I ain't ever been in ur heart you've pulled away from me I feel it in my heart, I can't take this pain of losing you after everyone else but losing u twice 1st the government say we...