I feel numb, stuck, trapped
My insecurities worsen each day
I miss my extraverted self
Where have I gone???!!!!!

I am existing, not living
I'm not unhappy nor am I sad
I'm apathetic, neither here nor there

No movement -stagnant- nothing changes
Yet my life, my home, myself,
Have changed beyond recognition

I'm using the nothingness to heal
Educate, restore, fix, mend
In the stillness, I hear my soul
My brain refuses to acknowledge it

Mindset unstable, undecided,
Body ages before my eyes...