So, it was a shiny morning
my heart filled with joy and laughter
Well I was just watching some comedy
and inside my tummy was all the haha's
It's afternoon now I had searching some psychological stuff
to ease my mind of bad behaviors
All the shouting, anger, frustration, disappointment, crying
forcing myself on others
It has not only taken toll over people I love but also on me.

I receive all my answers to my wrong behaviors to me, to others ,
it's my biological father.
Every wrong habit I inherited, every anger issue I went through, every time I found myself in a bad relationship, every time I obsessed over someone else's reaction.
As if it was meant to dig knife in heart once more to make me bleed again
to open those unhealed scars so that when I die, I die deceased someone who dug their already deep grave even further
as to no light can ever touch me again.

Evening time and I am in mom's room I want to talk to her tell her about how badly I have been hurt.
But she is busy I go away...