I yearned for it, I longed to hold
The moment I dreamed of, my heart's gold
But when it finally arrived, I was undone
Overtaken by the weight of what I'd begun

I thought I was ready, I thought I was strong
But the reality crushed me, all day long
I felt like a leaf, torn from its tree
Helpless, lost, and unable to be free

I had dreamed of this moment, for so long
But now it's here, and I don't belong
I'm drowning in the sea of my own desires
Unable to breathe, unable to retire

I longed for it, but now it's too much
A burden I carry, a weight I clutch
I thought it would bring me joy, bring me cheer
But now it's just a reminder, of my deepest fear.


© Inkedsoul