Dividing paths, separated soul, despair, anger, resentment... the need for love, security, and happiness. I'm split in many parts. On one side is a victim, powerless to those who decide my life without the need of my opinion. on an other side is a free spirit that wants to be free, live life, and enjoy it. Yet an additional side is angry that I'm not perfect, that I'm still struggling with my childhood trauma, I am still not where I want to be, that I am so passive and defeated... These sides, one in the past, one trying to enjoying the present, one anxious for a better future... they tear me apart. But as I work through my trauma, I lessen the pull and slowly I integrate the pieces of my soul into one. It isn't easy, I am constantly faltering and floundering, but a little bit of peace I've built is able to keep me steady.
© Melika.Dream