You used to be my Anchor.
You used to be the one to keep me grounded and relaxed.
You held me down when my head wasn't right.
You kept me from drifting away and loosing myself.

But now...

Now you're just holding me back from my life.
I feel like I'm dragging ball and chain everywhere I go.
You weigh me down.

I need to move on, but how can I do that?
After everything we've been through.
All the laughing and crying.
All the long conversations.
All the exited meet-ups.
Sitting in the sunlight with you by my side in happy silence.
Twirling you around and watching you dance with that wonderful elegance.
The way you would light up when you saw my face, no matter how run-down I looked.
How can I let you go?
How can I accept that you didn't really love me?
How can I accept that you hate me and I may never know why?
What did I do wrong?
Why have you silenced me?
If there's anything I can do to make it all better, I would do it.
Just to be your friend again.
At least tell me why.
Why do you hate me?
I need closure.
But I can't even ask.
I can't communicate with you.
You already threatened me.
But I still need to know.
Somehow.
What did I do to make you hate ne enought to...

How could you do that to me?

I can't lie to myself anymore.
Yes, I'm angry at you for what you did, but I don't really, fully hate you.
I hate myself.
I hate myself because I still love you and I can't let you go.