I don't think this world is for me,
then I look at my kids,
And I see that's why I was brought here,
to birth these beautiful humans,
The future is in their hands,
so much pressure they don't need it,
so many demands, I'm giving my all but I think I am breaking,I think I'm giving in, throwing in the towel,
I don't know what else to do, now.

I'm pushed to my limits,
I'm exhausted, im drained,
I've run out of excuses,
I don't have any more chances,
This is the end,
I think,
This must be what it feels like

saying goodbye is a sacrifice I must make,
It's the inevitable I been delaying, hoping shit was all in my head, but I see that's not the case,
It's all collapsing, I can't control it,it is what it is,everything happens for a reason,right

so I guess this is meant to be,
Why have I been putting up such a fight,
those babies I birthed those children I adore, they 're the only reason i keep going on the only reason I keep walking while I feel my shin bones are breaking, they be the reason I am so drained,broke,stressed,
loved unconditionally, they are the fight in me while they dance around me saying haha I don't want to clean up that mess I made,
fighting and bickering back and forth its the brothers so now the sister's have come in and said their piece

now I am so drained mentally and emotionally physically, I ain't got a clue what the future is gunna bring I'll fight til I got no more
strength, over my dead body is the only way my kids will ever be some place I don't know and I ain't been. And I guarantee u I wouldn't approve no I would not agree.

my kids are my life they are the world that spins around me, they are the air I breathe, I love them unconditionally.







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