I love the silence,
it guts me to the end,
I wonder if they all still remember,
or they forgot I'd surrendered,

My wishes weren't commands,
I dream of them, and it haunts,
to this day I am not ready,
maybe I never will be,

But when I stand there in the crowd,
my heart breaks and mind shouts,
I want a break and forgive myself,
How do I do without doubting the rest?

I wish they know how to save me,
but I know I am not worthy,
they might keep hoping,
but I will never get back to belonging,

This is my new life,
where I am alone but right,
their voices do not hurt anymore,
their judgements have no score,

I am out there alone, but I am me,
my feelings are raw but breathing,
I believe that I did everything right,
without them to care, I made my case tonight.

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© Nilakshi Garg