If one heart breaks too many times, the outcome is severe,

This is my first-hand account, and why I’m standing here.

I was not protected, believed, comforted or heard

To expect I’d rally differently, or better is absurd.

Who the hell do you think you are?

Creating demons, and inflicting scars

Never showing me affection, and rarely being kind

Really does a number on a child’s simple mind.

I slid a razor over my skin, the first time when I was six

The cuts have healed just fine, mental anguish fucking sticks

The problem is, the six year old, you tortured has grown up

Turns out I can be loved Frances,

so I filled my own cup

You mean nothing to me Frances.

Hey Ivan, fuck you too!

I hope you know, in many ways,

I've killed the both of you.

Sam I fucking hate your stupid ass for what you did.

Do you feel remorseful now? Or are you still fucking kids?

My wish for you… is suffering, much more before your dead

If I were you, I’d kill myself, just like the voices said.

Eric you aren't worth a single word from me, or a wisp of air,

You could die today in fact, and nobody would care.

Ivan you’re the disappointment, you aren't even a man.

Get in my face you fucking coward, and I’ll drop you where you stand.

Judge not, lest he be judged himself; old man I wouldn't dare

You should have fucking stopped him Ivan, after all, you were right there

Instead you did what you do best and hid under a hood

You probably think we'll meet in hell, but me and God are good

Keep yourselves away from me, I am better than you all

My heads held high, were toe to toe, I’m big now and you’re small.

Those of you reading this might think I’m being mean

Trust me though when I say ''you ain't seen anything''

Heidi Shavill

2013