I have this feeling
that I can’t seem to explain
It consumes my brain
An excruciating pain
It’s a crippling loss
But not a loss of a life
Well a loss of a life,
just one that hasn’t died

Scrolling through my camera roll at 2am
Watching the smiles on faces
i’ll never see again
Memories come flooding in
It’s like my senses are stuck in those moments
I just failed to notice
The souls that I loved the most
Now feel like ghosts

I can’t help but wonder
If I am to blame
Should I have left everything behind
Would it have ended the same
I tried to do what was best
And now I’m just obsessed
With who I could have been
If trusting my gut made any sense

So I’ve settled for missing out
On the sound of their laughter
What a disaster
I’ve settled for a phone call
Instead of a short walk down the hall

Forgiving myself
Would be best for my health
But I just can’t escape
These thoughts in my brain
Don’t think it was a mistake
It was a risk you had to take
There should be no shame
In wishing everything
was the same


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