At times am not myself
A third person in my own body is what I feel
In case u r wondering who the second is
You know it ,everybody got 2 sides right?
I Wish that was it for me , but no!!

Have u ever felt a million people inside you,
A million perspects,
a million answer to a single yes /no question?
Trust me..am not mad. Not yet!

They say 'be different'.
But they never said that the path will be lonely.
I don't blame' em. How could they know?
I easily find fault in others.
That's how I keep my distance
& that's how I stay sane.

I know the sun doesn't revolve around me & neither around you
So why bother me?
I don't poke my nose into your bussiness.
Is it too much to ask to do the same for me?

I don't make sense . I know.
I don't want to.
If I make sense, you guys won't listen to.
I over think. I know
I over react. I know
I over trust. I know
I over do everything
even when everything's over.

I never hated me,
but I hate the things I did
for the people who were nothing but liars.
Am not that easy to love.
Nobody is.
But you know that already.

Everybody says that I changed.
But what else did you expect when u let me walk through the hell.
For me There's no such thing as 'thinking of a thought'
It's always a war of thoughts in war.
There's no scenario where I win
But I never loose. Never!

All these thoughts leads me
To a dead end
Posing questions of my sanity
They all say am batshit crazy
Like it's only a matter of what kinda
But who among you know me
Who among you see me
Who among you feel me
That am only human




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