it's almost been 5 years ago,
I can't believe this is true
because it seems like yesterday that I brought you home.
and hear your specific cry in my mind.

I'm so sorry that I brought you here away from home,
knowing that you where love and taking care of Never Alone, still some people thanks for that you're better off without me.

I'm sorry that you're gone I'm sorry you had to go away trust me was never my choiceoh, it's always been five years ago. Oh, that rolled down my cheeks. especially seeing your dad cry to how is a moment that will never be forgotten because it brought us closer together because we were both close to you. a little miracle what a great personality and so much spunk taking you making me out to be and negative negligent one will never disappear from my mind. My lot my heart lies heavy these days so heavy it's hard to breathe can't step out of the madness sometimes the moments of flashbacks consumed with me I hate this PTSD if I ignore or pretend they don't exist I can almost have a good day but then as soon as I think of you and how messed up I am to purposely try to forget it makes it 100% more intense. here come this October you'll be another year older come on making it 5 years that you've been walking this Earth as my daughter oh, what a blessing oh, what a proud individual you've made me to have had you been able to be your mother for as long as I was. have a wonderful birthday Mommy loves you so much never forget the feeling of love