It started with the symptoms,
And slowly i had everything,
From headache to pain in my deep tissues and every inch of my bones.
Every hour i vomitted
with splling blood all over,
It was like I had a tap fitted inside.
The pain was gradual,
first it tingled like feather
and then punches as hard as it can,
with everything altogether,
I had severe blood loss,
People were scared about how pale i look,
there were clear sores all over my body,
Followed by unintended weight loss.
It marked up everyday
particularly when i got llb mets (lung liver bone metastasis)
i could sense my end was getting close,
every time i entered the hospice premises,
From one OPD to another,
Finally i entered the cancer OPD
I was diagnosed with a final stage,
I just felt so done
The treatment was even more dreadful than the symptoms
They started the chemo (chemotherapy),
It had more downsides than the benefits, in tons
i almost looked like a bald alien
with no body fat, just salient.
I appeared as i was bleached,
with sickening bruises all over.
It went to next level with radiotherapy,
when the radiations penetrated me,
It drained all my energy,
I felt so exhausted, barely alive to be.
The level of anxiety i had,
made me go crazy and super bad.
In the end i was regularly breathless.
My oxygen level was almost nil,
they...