I don't think you understand your words all your words and your actions would also cause a reaction this as soon as your words where born into air that would reach my ears and into my brain and littile did you know or even take a second to care that those words would cause depression and pain the very thing you felt every fucking day I worried and I cried and some nights id feel dead only filled with dread laying in my bad nightmares they caused sleep paralysis cause I felt help less oh I felt help less and it broke my heart to see you in any kind of pain the Dariningness that pain can be take away are stragnth and makes us feel we I'm lifes been in it's own way a pretty littile nightmare all those she's dead she'll secretly be my first love first love so dear to me you where so many things to me and a part of my dad I've feel has already been in me and part of you I notice since your gone I notice I never knew him my father but I feel like if I pay attention all the guy things I do how I'd walk around nude if I could but I can't and I hate whereing bras or clothes for fo long ivr always dreamed of being nature and living there one day after I stelled down got me ged and got a chance to go to college ...see what I'm truly capable of cussed I've got the brilliance I'm the the light that one one sees maybe I'm just a fire work a spark they only few see and only one bursting like a supernova as slow as I will allow I need to put my self first crawl my way out of the abyss of my past and all my hate and self doubt my wings are broken and aching so is my soul my body it fails me I feel use less then I try my best to take the wheel handle the pain even when I'm embarrassed and wanna cover up all the tears when I feel...