I just can't look at cats or dogs and not think about how you loved them.
Every time I see a cat or a dog passing by i can see you petting them and smiling in joy.
I can't listen to a song without thinking of you.
I can't stop thinking about how you say things how you talk what you hate what you like how you would react to things
Not a day passes where I don't think about how things should have been, what if something else had happened?
I just can't keep my mind shut I tried burying you in the back of my mind and it ain't working.
It's like a helpless situation where I want to do something but there's nothing that can be done. fuck it, fuck rhyming words or anything.
I woke up in the morning with this weight pulling me down, i have to face this reality. I can't look at things the same way now. I don't want to get up i just want to stay there and think about it
All there's left to do is accept what has happened and move on.
It ain't working I'm just at times in denial  i want something very desperately i don't know what.
There's no one here with whom I can talk about us.
I'm scraping the bottom of the pot
I can't live with the fact that I fucking ruined it
© Anjum