I’m scared to admit that I’m not feeling okay.
I feel like I’m searching for pity 
whenever I feel pain.
I feel guilty when I cry 
like I don’t deserve 
tears that fall out of my eyes.

I have the fear of being heard.
so I stay quiet whenever I’m hurt.
I don’t want to make a scene
so I write words.
God, why do I fear being heard?

Even if I whisper in your ears
I feel weak when I let you see tears.
I’ve pretended like I’m fine for years
I’m nothing special so why should I be here
expressing my feelings is my greatest fear.

© andrewmeyerpoetry