Two days of incessant physical and almost unbearable pain and a lot of time to think and talk with my self and I've learnt a few heartbreaking truths about just how broken I actually am. And how daunting, exasperating, overwhelming and beautiful that realisation is. Healing hurts. The truth hurts. But scar tissue, defence mechanisms, bad habits, avoidance, grief, fear, loneliness, self loathing, shame and the enormous ripple affect that can have on others hurts so much more. Time to find myself again and heal what I've broken and left broken inside me, so I can truly love those that matter most to me the way they deserve. Because I deserve that much too. It's...