Maybe one day,
I'll wake up with a will.
Maybe one day,
I wouldn't find a reason to kill.

How can I change,
After so many years of being this way?
How come I never stay,
Despite having nothing to turn me away?

A slow burn destroys the child i preserved,
I let it go like I never cared.
I was sure I didn't deserve,
The love and affection I never had.

What have I come to?
A swirling thought in my head.
Misery takes control,
When I lose every attempt.

The rain can't make up for my cries,
It has turned into violence.
Nobody can stop me now,
From bleeding to death.

What a life I lived, almost invisible.
I'll put an end to it now,
Like nothing ever happened.

Then I would cry at the gates of hell asking for mercy,
When I myself didn't care enough,
To let me live for the sake of eternity.

The scars may fade away,
My remains won't.
For I have left a piece of my wound,
On all the pages of my dear's book.
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