Before this moment
Before life became a mess
As I sit here with my brandy
I sit and reminisce

I really thought I stood tall and proud
The one who stood out in the crowd
For all the wrong reasons though
I swear even my cuz thinks I'm a ho

But I stay neverminded, silently sick and tired
Of all life has thrown at me
Down below now
A place I thought I'd never be

I sit watching in envy
As people around me
Stand successful, tall and proud,
and do it effortlessly
And for all the right reasons, known for the right things
Is this selfish of me?

In the inn I sit and wonder why
I always thought I was stronger
Now I know it was a front
And I can keep up no longer

Heart ripped out my chest, it literally feels like it broke
Why is this life so difficult, is it a joke?
I hope to wake from this dream
Sooner rather than later
To realise and to my surprise that I can actually be greater

In the inn I sit and wonder
Those people around me....
They've always been stronger

Now I'm alone and feel hopeless
Not sure I can hold on much longer


~Jay_Em_El