I'm angry.

It feels like a fire burning in my chest.
It hurts me.

I hate him.
I really hate him.

I want to escape but I can't.
I want to explain the details
But I can't
Tell anyone else.

I am terrified of him.
He has messed me up,
Badly.

I have told so many people.
Each time I talk about it
I relive it.

When I tell someone,
It makes me feel the way I did
When he said those awful things.

I can't explain
What he did.
Although
I can tell you,
My anger
And his words
Bruised my soul.

I almost want to keep the anger,
And hold it
Until it burns my palms.
I sort of want to pretend
That I don't care
About what he says.

It's easier
To lie to myself.

"Of course I don't care.
Really, I don't."

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