Seeing your face, my heart no longer smiles.
The fire has been extinguished,
a gloom has set in,
rain clouds have exiled the sun.
When did this happen?
When did I fall from the float,
to hit the ground so painfully?
My mind and my heart,
cannot answer that question.
Like a cool summer breeze,
love blew past.
No matter how hard this self tries
to make things as beautiful as before;
The eyes only see dry deserts-burnt rain forests.
Lying on a stone next to a warm body
when did I become ice?
When did your touch move me to put a knife through your heart?
I have become a lonely ball of mass curled up in an empty corner.
Pretend!
Playing pretend has knocked the air out of my lungs.
I am a woman burried alive, helplessly gassping for air.
How did our love story come to this?
When did being with you start hurting more then being away from you?
When did watching you leave give me relief, while watching you walk towards me feels like a thousand deaths.
My mind wonders could this heart have ever really loved you?
Was the fear of loneliness so great,
that this me,
yes I held on so tight to the first best thing that these eyes caught sight of.
I am not in love today,
yesterday it was no different.
The truth is this,
I have never loved!
© NasibaLizzie