I've been nursing some thoughts in my heart
I don't think I can let them all out
It's complicated. I can't really decipher what they're about
I really want to say it but I don't know where to start.

It all feels like a delusion
Desires and fantasies about her are playing in my head.
I always feel like going to her and leaving my stead.
What is this O God! is this infatuation?

I see her everyday but I miss her like I never do.
My heart is for God alone. Why is this happening to me?
It feels like I'm erring but I just want to.
If I were told this would happen I would never believe.

The Bible says God is love.
It says we should love God with our whole heart and might.
This I have been doing before I got lost.
Oh Lord save me! I think I'm leaving the light.

Suggestions are coming in from right and left.
Some said I am falling some said it's a test.
I am left in a confused state of love and fear.
I think I'm going to just tell everything to my dear.

I love a brother's advice and it states;
"God is interested in every issues of our lives even this.
The only thing you need to do is set a boundary
So she won't come in between you and your God.
God should be between the two of you
Because He is love and He wants the love
The love between both of you to be Him.
You should say 'I love you' meaning 'I God you".

Among all these advices and suggestions, I have to choose.
I don't know whether to feel bad or good.
But one thing I'm sure of is that I love her, I surely do.
And I don't mind if I eventually break the rules.
© bedstrings